Thursday

It's really slow at work so I'm gonna try and update my blog. This Tuesday my Dad was supposed to come up and visit Freddy and I, something inside told me not to place too much anticipation into it. I guess my insides are more Romantic than I give them credit for, I allowed myself to get excited, more than I thought I guess, because when he bailed, and he didn't call to let me know, and he didn't really even apologize and try and make it right I felt really hurt. I didn't realize it until later in the evening but I was  dropping in and out of focus, finding myself mindlessly engaging in small tasks, wandering around my room almost in a haze. I was really disappointed in how he treated the situation, Freddy and I are cutting a corner out for ourselves up here, so incredibly distanced from family and friends. It 's a very exciting thought to  to give someone the kind of perspective you face everyday, the things you can't express in words, the places you have to see to understand, and most of all where we live. But it was nice to hang out with Freddy that night, we chilled out at starbucks for a little bit and talked, I always enjoy that.

One of my New Years resolutions was to drink fewer energy drinks, it got to the point where I was averaging nearly 1 a day, and there's no way that's healthy. I don't consider myself addicted because I don't feel any different without them, I don't crave them, I just end up buying them. Since New Years I've only had three, which is a HUGE improvement over the rate I was going at before. 

It's still pretty slow at work but I should get back to focussing on tasks around the place, after the amazingly busy follow up to the Christmas season it's nice to have times like these, reminds me of the summer.